Miscellaneous Musings

Ch-ch-ch-changes

So… 2020 hey?

There’s been a lot going on…

… and that’s not even including the world going to hell in a handbasket.

I’ve been quiet this past month because there’s been so much change in my personal life, that I just haven’t had the mental energy, time, or inspiration to write.

However, in big news – I quit my job! Which was honestly the hardest decision I’ve ever made in my life. I’ve lost a lot of sleep over it, and shed even more tears (legit, I think I’ve cried every day for the past 6 weeks). But it’s also very exciting, and I’m looking forward to the opportunities and period of growth that’s in front of me.

There were a lot of contributing factors to my decision, but one of the biggest ones was that my mental health was taking such a beating. For such a long time now, I’ve felt just so endlessly overwhelmed – like I was drowning and there was no chance of taking a breath ever again. In the brief spaces of time when I’ve not felt overwhelmed, everything else was just numb.

Eventually, my doctor figuratively slapped me with a hard reality, that if I didn’t make some changes, I’d end up too unwell to function.

So I quit.

I know it was the right decision (though I am cursing the timing now). However, I still feel unbelievably guilty about leaving my amazing team of incredibly smart, talented, funny, and inspiring teammates behind. Especially now that COVID-19 is having such a devastating impact on the travel industry (among other industries). Though, I am glad I’ve missed the ensuing shit-show…

On the most positive note, Brodie has been such a wonderful support through all of this. He’s held me when I’ve cried; he’s championed my successes; he’s supported me trying this new venture; he’s raised me up when I’ve been so down, and he’s loved me unconditionally through it all. I couldn’t have done any of this without him. Thanks baby ❤️.

I’m going to do a proper post about what I’m up to next week – keep an eye out for it!

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